It seems that whenever Carly learns a new “trick” we have to start CIO all over again.
We cried it out when I realized spending 5 hours trying to put her to bed was too much. It lasted a tough 3 nights, but it worked.
Then when Carly learned to roll onto her back, she decided she would yell until I’d flip her back onto her tummy. Which created a downward spiral because then she wouldn’t want to go to sleep once she saw me. Took about 2 nights, and when she realized I wasn’t going to flip her over, she did it on her own and fell asleep.
Now we get to last night. I put Carly to bed as usual (although a tad later than usual) and about 5 minutes later she’s crying quietly. This is not out of the norm, but then she started screaming. I rushed in there, only to find her standing up. So I picked her up, we played for a while and I knew it wasn’t good for a routine, but I just missed her so much I had to. She finally fell asleep around 10:45ish next to me in bed. Then she woke up at 4 wanting to play, so back to the crib she went and was out for another 3.5 hours.
Then came tonight… She was asleep for about 45 minutes and then the screaming started again. I knew without even going in there that she was standing up, waiting for me to get her. As much as I wanted to, I stayed in the living room crying myself. I haven’t had such turmoil before, feeling both sides pulling me. I wanted so badly to just go in and hold her, but I knew if I did that I couldn’t be consistent during the week. It only lasted about 10 minutes, but she’s now been asleep for about the last 25.
It’s tough. I know that everyone parents their own way, and this is the way that I choose and is best for my family. But with that being said, it doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt my heart.
I know when she wakes in the morning she’ll have no recollection of it, which helps me to realize that I am helping her to become a well-adjusted, strong and happy girl.